Hello little butterflies of heaven, it’s Cristal again.
Spirit flies above this world like a pretty butterfly, or a majestic bird flying through ocean mist.
Wings are symbols of a function that takes the the animal to new heights to see a more complete and total perspective of the world. To be above it all, flying free, we can see things with a perspective untouched by the ego. We feel everything being healed by Spirit.
I want to talk a little bit about myself.
I had an intense unexpected awakening years ago, and I had no way of knowing I could ever lead a life free of worries and anxieties.
Life got hard, then harder.
My awakening afterall had started at the same time my life was becoming chaotic.
I was stuck in a hopeless cycle.
It took time and patience to get me out of there with God’s love and strength.
I don’t blame myself for things I did that I thought I would regret for the rest of my life. I should never regret crying for God, which I called The Universe at the time, to please help me even if I didn’t believe in him.
He showed me He did. I needed him.
My family and I would experience extremely horrible things in life we thought were not possible. I can’t divulge details, but years later I understood what I went through caused us trauma, harm, and even growth.
I remember my brain would shut down from multiple nights of no sleep, wishing things would get better for all of us, and for the end of hell to commence.
My brain shutting down caused me so much suffering. What would I be without constant pain, I thought? I wanted the brain, but it caused me great pain to use it and think life could only get worse. And why was so much happening to me, and to us, if we were God’s children. How could he let us go through this?
I then learned that the mind could create suffering and make things harder if we didn’t work on it.
The undisciplined mind has us believe we are simply what we see in the physical world. That is not true.
When I continued working on ACIM, which is about working with changing your mind, that is when I saw God’s Truth in plain text.
I could always feel it even if I resented God, but I had no words to explain it. Words used to be hard for me to use. I’m doing my best now by expressing myself in the blog.
It’s hard to say I’ll be this happy with myself and my life in the future. So much occurs in life, that make us hesitate to put our hand in God’s hand. I was not sure I could trust again either.
I will pray God gives me his strength in everything that comes our way. I know I will pray, because we can’t always avoid pain and suffering.
When I forgive I know I am bringing myself together to God. So one day you will have to do the same. Will you accept your function and who you are right now?
If it’s not your time to do it, don’t worry.
We all accept eventually. It’s our destiny. It’s only time and space that says we can hesitate right now, or that we have a reason to reject God like I thought I did.
❤️Cristal
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