We project our fears onto others. What we fear are projections, but they’re coming from deep within ourselves. We want out of this horror movie!

ACIM offers a key, a way out, and you will only know what it’s like if you take it.

Aren’t you tired of being something so mean, unfulfilled, unhappy, and miserable?

It’s time to decide for yourself. Take it, or don’t. It’s up to you.

❤️Cristal

Today I feel I can accept who I am. I can let God show me what I am. I have nothing else to hide, for the light inside has banished all I thought I was.

❤️Cristal

We’re living in a mirror world. If we smile, the mirror smiles back.

Simplicity does not always make it an easy task to do. The truth just is what it is. It never states the inner process it will take to get that smile to come on our face.

Personally, it took years to smile with happiness. I didn’t grow up listening to the holiest inner guide, instead I grew up with the ego. I took it’s mad idea seriously.

Then one day, things changed and I felt myself go to a place I’ve never been before in my mind.

It was an experience of awakening that had to change my life forever. I had to get that ego chalkboard eraser before I could realize God did exist. I also realized I was super mad at God, but God is not the mirror. We can’t blame him for our wrong decisions. We can only help ourselves from the delusional reality we created, then we will see that the Truth never changed, God never left, and we were the shinning light we were waiting for.

Today I shall open myself to these lessons which were hard to accept, but not hard to find. We always find what we seek.

❤️Cristal

We can reclaim peace any time we want to. Listening in to the truth, that peace is always here. It can bring a smile to our face in the moments of uncertainty, doubt, and fear. Isn’t that what we want, consistent love and peace always? Whenever possible?

Today I will repeat to myself, “Is love and peace here?” Yes, they are.

❤️Cristal

We do belong to love.

Don’t be fooled by the pressures of the illusions, or it’s attempts to make you forget, just give a prayer of thanks that you already know where you’re heading.

❤️Cristal

When I asked myself what makes a puppy happy, I had a sudden vision of a dog barking at his reflection.

It seems silly but it makes sense. We bark at our own reflection. The more I change, the more the mirror reflects back to me an enemy that’s turned to a friend.

As I do the lesson, it becomes interesting to see how happiness is not the main point anymore. It’s about becoming aware of the block to happiness.

I have felt hopeless, and others don’t know how to help me.

I have felt a limit on joy, and others will remain serious around me because they don’t feel they can joke too much.

I have felt lonely, and others feels I push them away.

I have been happy, and the world is happy for me.

Now…

It’s time I accept I’ve barked at the wrong thing all my life. There’s no need to look at the blank mirror and blame it for my wrong perception. That means I can forgive myself, and forgive others more easily…happy puppy wisdom for the win!

Can’t I be happy all the time? Can I really be more than happy with this? Can I please be happy me?

Life can’t be so complicated. It is complications that make it hard to be happy. Who puts them on us anyways?

Just us.

Or may it’s just being human that makes us complicated? I doubt it. I’m starting to doubt everything I learned. I want to learn from the experts now.

So what does it take to be as happy as a puppy?

Speak dog?

Act like dog?

Think like dog?

What is dog??

Alright, I sound silly, but I’m quite serious.

Today my lesson is pondering what makes dog so happy.

❤️Cristal

You are what you have made, the voice of Spirit gently reminds me.

It used to catch me off guard hearing that. I mean, what are we supposed to do when we first learn that we are what we have made and created?

It’s about having a choice, and the Holy Spirit shows us we have that other choice. What it means is a reminder that the hurt I perceive from outside is usually coming from inside.

Of course, it’s hard to undo ourselves from the pain we have inside when (we think) it’s justified. We can cement the story in our hearts and life story.

So…Instead of asking what do I do about this, I’m having to ask what do I do about me.

I have a story that ego has planted in me since my birth: I am alone.

It’s the reason I grip some hands more than others. It’s the reason I push others away too.

It’s become part of my identify: I am alone.

This thought alone can make a person scared of so many things. It’s not something I suggest anyone deal with alone (ironic), but sometimes we are alone when we think it. It’s not truly aloneness we fear, but rather the thought “I’m alone because I’m this and that” which consumes us with a dark feeling of loneliness.

Loneliness and aloneness are not the same thing depending on how we use them in what we’re saying. We’re sometimes alone because, in my case, it helps write without distractions. It really helps me focus on writing my blog or journal.

The real problem is when we are painfully alone because of our loneliness that it dawns on us: we feel disconnected from God, the Sonship, people around us, the core of happiness and love inside.

How can we be lonely if God claims He’s here with us all the time?

So…It’s a giant Ego Trap. I don’t know how else to call our delusion. It’s a giant disconnection from who we are.

But do we feel it? Yes. Do we feel it when we’re surrounded by family and friends? Yes. When we’re actually alone? Yes. When we’re listening inside to our deepest darkest fears? Yes!

It’s unfortunately more common than not.

Even the spiritual community wants us to be alone. It wants us each to take the responsibility to connect with God. It’s a task alone, to connect to something greater than the little identity we have formed about ourselves. So we meet loneliness with aloneness, just to make the ego itch and twist and rot away…

It’s a hard lesson.

In ACIM we are shown the words of Jesus, and it says we have to serve as a reminder to our brothers. We are never alone.

This world is nothing but illusion…

God is always with us…

God never left.

When we say that we want to roll our eyes and cry. But when we seek that peace inside, the world outside changes to welcome us home. We were always home in God, as One. That never changed.

❤️Cristal

Hello little butterflies of heaven, it’s Cristal again.

Spirit flies above this world like a pretty butterfly, or a majestic bird flying through ocean mist.

Wings are symbols of a function that takes the the animal to new heights to see a more complete and total perspective of the world. To be above it all, flying free, we can see things with a perspective untouched by the ego. We feel everything being healed by Spirit.

I want to talk a little bit about myself.

I had an intense unexpected awakening years ago, and I had no way of knowing I could ever lead a life free of worries and anxieties.

Life got hard, then harder.

My awakening afterall had started at the same time my life was becoming chaotic.

I was stuck in a hopeless cycle.

It took time and patience to get me out of there with God’s love and strength.

I don’t blame myself for things I did that I thought I would regret for the rest of my life. I should never regret crying for God, which I called The Universe at the time, to please help me even if I didn’t believe in him.

He showed me He did. I needed him.

My family and I would experience extremely horrible things in life we thought were not possible. I can’t divulge details, but years later I understood what I went through caused us trauma, harm, and even growth.

I remember my brain would shut down from multiple nights of no sleep, wishing things would get better for all of us, and for the end of hell to commence.

My brain shutting down caused me so much suffering. What would I be without constant pain, I thought? I wanted the brain, but it caused me great pain to use it and think life could only get worse. And why was so much happening to me, and to us, if we were God’s children. How could he let us go through this?

I then learned that the mind could create suffering and make things harder if we didn’t work on it.

The undisciplined mind has us believe we are simply what we see in the physical world. That is not true.

When I continued working on ACIM, which is about working with changing your mind, that is when I saw God’s Truth in plain text.

I could always feel it even if I resented God, but I had no words to explain it. Words used to be hard for me to use. I’m doing my best now by expressing myself in the blog.

It’s hard to say I’ll be this happy with myself and my life in the future. So much occurs in life, that make us hesitate to put our hand in God’s hand. I was not sure I could trust again either.

I will pray God gives me his strength in everything that comes our way. I know I will pray, because we can’t always avoid pain and suffering.

When I forgive I know I am bringing myself together to God. So one day you will have to do the same. Will you accept your function and who you are right now?

If it’s not your time to do it, don’t worry.

We all accept eventually. It’s our destiny. It’s only time and space that says we can hesitate right now, or that we have a reason to reject God like I thought I did.

❤️Cristal

When all blocks to love and oneness are removed, we will witness the greatest Truths: we are the creators, we are one with God always, we can release ourselves from this nightmare by releasing our brothers with love, and we all share that destiny beyond time and space.

Our power under the ego’s influence is scary, fearful, antagonizing, and horrible like nightmares. With God’s guidance we will see there is nothing to fear.

It has taken time in order for us to feel a progress, which is to say we are changing and progressing into something better than we knew.

Ego is what we think we were supposed to know. Ego is like unyielding loyalty to pain.

Now that we have given ourselves release from this, we recognize we deserve salvation. We deserve that love passionately, softly flowing from grace.

It’s time you teach yourself and your brothers something new. You’re doing this for you and your brothers. There can’t be a better reason why, and you’ll understand one day.

❤️Cristal