I made this today after letting me feel love’s embrace. It’s everything I hoped it would be like.

May you also find your love looking at you with no fear in their eyes.

❤️ MCM, a.k.a. Cristal

I have to pay attention to my inner thoughts. If they aren’t watched, then I won’t know what actually upsets me.

My inner thoughts will create a reality that makes me peaceful or angry. Projection is always caused by the anger that’s caused by the fear of believing there is a separation between us and God.

My peace comes from being one with God, and in Him, I find me. I have all the peace in the world. I have the light and joy to shine away the darkness I believed in.

That is why it’s so helpful to meditate. I’m beginning to meditate when I’m walking, running, sitting, and holding no guilt about it.

I’ve held guilt about feeling too good, for far too long. Do you feel the same? Listen closely.

I start to hurry myself to do something after I’ve meditated. It’s the rush of panic that believes I have to do to keep love and my connection to God. Being in peace is never wrong. It almost feels like a default setting if we believed we deserved it. Honestly it’s unnatural to be self persecuted. It’s even bound to drive people to have bouts of anxiety or worse, depression.

So why would I feel so guilty for feeling so peaceful?

Pema Chödrön talks about guiltlessness in her learning course, Bodhisattva Mind. I thought about how her teacher was right. We make ourselves out to be bad people. We have to be alright with seeing who we are without judgement.

Are we bad for considering taking time for ourselves when we’ve just arrived out of a storm? Even the simplest things that make us feel stressed out means we’ve neglected ourselves far too long.

Now, when I focus on reaching God’s eternal love, I want to focus on how I can see it expand and grow in me. I can have it all. You can too. We deserve it.

❤️Cristal

When we let go of the darkness that blocked our true reality, we feel we don’t have a heavy burden to carry anymore.

In school we are taught to see what others want us to see. The darkness is the ego causing distortions in perception of what we should see. We feel like evil, fear, scarcity are out there. Not in here.

To see in the light, to see miracles, and love we have to rid of these blocks.

Ever notice how we don’t think about how easy it is to forgive someone we love?

We smile. We don’t hold any attack thought against them. We don’t even need to think about it.

“What mistake? What error? What was they did wrong? Does it even matter? It’s like the mistake never happened.”

It has taken a lot of lessons for me to realize this is a strength, and not a weakness. To see without the ego is a choice, and it takes strength to chose it over and over and over again.

We have only this moment to start. Let’s start now.

❤️Cristal

Take a journey inside to find the Christ in you.

Look inside and see the perfect son of God that you are.

❤️Cristal

God is that which looks beyond appearances, and beyond. God is beyond this world and can we trust him for just 5 minutes an hour to help us see through these dark illusions and nightmares?

I will.

Sometimes there isn’t much point in living in constant fear, specially if you’re like me, and you’ve already told yourself you have everything bad to lose and good to gain.

What I mean by that sentence is that sometimes people like me live in constant fear, negativity, or anxiety that you can’t help it — you give up to say, “What could be worse than this? What could be worse than my fearfulness except if I don’t want to give it up?”

God knows what I mean. These blogs are for me. I share them to share a apart of me. I don’t want to say I have reasons to be scared, but I rather say I finally have God as a reason to feel good, loved, supported…

For today I’ll rest in God. I’ll let go of all my fears and anxieties.

❤️Cristal

I’ve been thinking about lesson 108 from A Course in Miracles. I had to write this for me, and others.

I slightly reconsider giving everything when I ask,

Am I, are you, ready to give everything to receive everything?

I’ve made my self the ego’s dream. I have trouble letting go.

When we are receiving what we are giving, what do we see? Dread, fear, incompetence, and so on.

The world looks like it’s ending!

We have to reconsider what we think. What we think may not actually be real.

Only ego reacts to ego, and our true Self within wouldn’t.

If giving away the ego, the error, the fearful thought to God is all it takes to be happy, to feel joyful, to feel love, what more am I waiting for?

How do you give everything? Give away what is NOT valuable!

Fear is a joke. Fear has no value.

Together, we reconsider the world we think we belong to and ask ourselves,

How does it feel to have everything?

How does it feel to be the source, within Source?

I’m seeing within God’s heart for the answer this time…

Will you?

❤️Cristal

I fixed the picture to show the beautiful blue sky hiding behind all the clouds. I fixed my mistake, and I hope you like this pic I put together for all of us to use. Thanks to photographer Jason Blackeye for this beautiful picture of the clouds in the sky.

This was easy when I was unaware of guilt, fear, and lack.

When that changes and I believe in the lack of my self, or lack of others, I start to feel my grip turn hard and unforgiving.

When I was remember feeling only love and light, I could only see love and light, and people were shinning it back to me.

It’s quite easy to say you’ll do it until you feel you can’t.

I suggest letting go of any preconceived ideas of where this exercise will take you.

It’s purpose is to teach how we attract what we are, or how we can help others shine their light by shinning our own…

It’s not hard to understand it, but it may be hard to do it.

Catch yourself thinking the opposite of this lesson, and challenge yourself to do the lesson anyways.

So this was lesson 108 from A Course In Miracles.

❤️Cristal

“Can you imagine what a state of mind without illusions is? How it would feel? Try to remember when there was a time,–perhaps a minute, maybe even less–when nothing came to interrupt your peace; when you were certain you were loved and safe. Then try to picture what it would be like to have that moment be extended to the end of time and to eternity. Then let the sense of quiet that you felt be multiplied a hundred times, and then be multiplied another hundred more.” A Course in Miracles, Lesson 107.

How do you remember something so beautiful and let go?

Ask yourself why you’re letting it go.

How can we feel it more often?

This blog is our school. It helps me feel less alone. I’m sharing with you the most vital questions and information. I’m sharing even personal experiences. This life is a school that teaches us to remember God in moments of faithlessness, strife, fear, and so will you try and join me?

Let the Holy Spirit correct our errors. You’re not alone. Let’s please open our minds to him every hour we can. It takes just 5 minutes to feel Him again.

❤️Cristal

Lesson 107 today 🙏🏻❤️

Thank you Helga for this gift. It’s amazing how little books can help lighten up your mood. What this means to me…

Trust in Him.

Depend on Him.

Be one with Him.

God will show us the way.

What this means to me.

My relationship with Him is healing. I am trusting God every day. It’s rather new. My faith is tested, so I’ll give ego something to cry about. It’s cries are coming from farther away, as if it will be forgotten. That’s my hope.

It’s joy that I shall find harmonizes our hearts as one.

May my heart sing this joy so high and deep that my brothers shall sing in harmony with me.

❤️Cristal

So today’s lesson is 106, and it’s asking me one of the hardest things to conquer: to be still and listen!

There are times I hear God’s voice. His voice comes in dreams, meditation, stillness, walking, and prayer. Have I done them enough? No! It is super hard for me to feel I can justify 10 minutes to God because of the peace-killer guilt that reminds me I shouldn’t. Why do I listen to guilt at all?

Because I become so uncomfortable.

I must start my day!

I must help everyone else first!

I must do that before it’s 9!

The mind anxiously bites it’s lip as it waits for me to get things done. Who is the mind anyways? It’s a tool, the decision maker, that helps select my state of being.

I’m not it’s puppet. My true identity is beyond the mind.

I have decided I have to meditate. I have to do so much more for me than I was giving myself.

I can be giving towards myself.

A moment of peace for me.

A moment of love.

10 minutes a day to find God again? Yes, please!

God would only want us to help ourselves when we need to. God I pray you help me decide when I feel too scattered, and anxious to decide. I’ll choose you again.

❤️ Cristal